I decided to take up the #weekendwriter challenge this week....below is my submission. I haven't written in an incredibly long time and need to get my feet wet again and put my muse back to work...so here goes! Hope you enjoy...
Darkness Swallows
Her thoughts darted around her mind like lost souls without a compass. Her face showing the sadness and the hurt she held to so tightly. How had it happened? How had she walked away from the one bright thing in her crazy mixed up life? She leaned back and closed her eyes remembering how it had come to this...how she had made a decision that she would likely regret for the rest of her life.
Their relationship had never been easy, of that there was never any doubt. They had been like fire and water. So different and yet elements alike still the same. And of course, where fire and water meet there is always steam...hot, intense steam. And steam burns...it burns so badly and the pain goes so deep. She knew she would feel the pain of this burn, this decision, for a long time.
From the first time they met she knew she would always love him. The first time he held her small hand in his strong one she knew she would crave him like a green plant craves sunlight. the first time he wrapped his arms around her and enveloped her in his love that she would cling to him, seeking something solid and stable in her crazy world. He had been her sun...bringing light into the darkness that she had always walked in. She had thought that maybe this time she could live a normal life. That his goodness would balance out the emptiness of her soul. She had hoped that even if her life could never be all rainbows and sunshine that maybe because of him she could have some measure of sanity, a small taste of happy ever-after. But yet somehow, she had known it would never be. She had known that she would destroy him even as she loved him.
He tried so hard to find a way to get her beyond her past, to get her to the other side of it and onto a road that would lead them way from all the pain and anguish, from all that she held so deep within. But as fast as he added bricks and mortar, trying to build a bridge over the dark river of her past, she was chipping away and pulling out the foundation of the structure, undermining his every effort. Somehow, she just couldn't let him. She fought him at every turn. She let the voices in her head speak louder and louder, drowning out the love he was trying so desperately to give. She was so afraid to trust again, so afraid to let anyone...even him, with all his goodness and light...into her heart again.
So, here she sits, staring out the window of this airplane. Wondering how hurt he will be when he wakes and finds her gone. She wonders if he will understand that she had to go...that she had to leave before her darkness swallowed up his light...before the dark waters of her soul put out the flames of his heart forever.
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